Hi everyone, my name is Abi and I want to give you a little insight into me and how #shepackbeauty came to be.
Ever since I can remember, beauty has been a passion of mine, dancing round in sparkly dresses, with smudge blue eyeshadow and misplaced red lippie age 5! (hay it was the early 90’s) it made me feel beautiful, princess-like and happy. That feeling grew as I got older and discovered the right way to do make up and dived into the world of beauty. From the age of 14 I knew this is what I wanted to do! But dreams don’t always work out as planned do they? I won’t bore you (that’s for another blog post) but let’s say a lot of mountains and challenges got thrown my way. Beauty then became my hobby, my escape, my war paint and strength! The feelings I felt as a little girl were still there but it became so much more to me. And it made my desire even more so, I knew there was a reason and calling but i couldn’t at the time work it out.
So I went on to work within the banking industry, I actually made a very successful career for myself, coming from where I did I thought at one point my life, had broken the mould of which i was born into… But sadly that mould ended up suffocating my life and in the end suffocated it to near death. I spent many years comfortably numb, I’m sure many of you will relate to that. Not being happy but accepting that your life is what it is and robotically going about your day to day. Every time I would look in a mirror I would physically see parts of me disappear. ( I mean if it had been the extra pounds then i wouldn’t have minded so much). When I say disappear, I mean me, my character, this fun loving care free soul. The woman who just wanted to be loved, who had so much love to give but was never enough! The pain became who I was, it attracted more pain and heartache time after time.
Then one day I’d finally decided enough was enough! The covid-19 lockdown offered me reflection time, like everyone it offered me perspective, and in the pandemic and uncertain world we now live in, why the hell am i wasting time! I get one life and I want to do what I want to do, no regrets! I had recently escaped a narcissistic relationship, the moment it ended I felt like I had just breathed air for the first time. Imagine being underwater, holding your breath, the surface looks miles away and you think you’re not going to make it, and that first gulp of air when you break the water, that’s what breaking free felt like.